LETTER FROM MY ADDICTION HOW TO

On the nights I donвЂ™t go over, I check in on your older children to see how they are doing. I have to make dinner, get things ready for the next day, and bathe my child. When I get home, I still have to do what REAL mothers do. These days throw off the routine I have established for my own family. On those days, I go to her house so she has some support. Every day on my way home, I call our mother to see how sheвЂ™s doing raising your children. Most days I work nine hours sometimes ten. You brought two more children into this world, and now they are also being raised by our mother.Д«ut you have eleven days sober! Good for you! You decided, for whatever reason, they were a better fit to raise your son and daughter.Дuring this time, did you take it upon yourself to self-reflect, seek therapy, or focus on the important things in life? NO! You chose to procreate again with an abusive convict a man who, when not incarcerated, collects disability because he suffers with an вЂњaddiction problemвЂќ. When I was twenty years old, you decided to abandon your children and leave them with our mother and ailing father.

And now, you would try to guilt your daughter for not being supportive of your eleven days? That responsibility has been left on your mother, her grandmother and legal guardian, and me her aunt. Are you seeking support and admiration for doing something for eleven days? You havenвЂ™t raised your children in SIXTEEN YEARS! Your daughter hasnвЂ™t been able to seek guidance from you with her relationship problems, celebrate happy occasions with you, or reach out to even ask random questions because you have never been there for her. To My Sister:ДЄ few days ago, I heard you say to your daughter, вЂњIf anyone cares, I am eleven days sober.вЂќ This confused me. I can no longer be a beacon of hope for the addict in my life.

LETTER FROM MY ADDICTION HOW TO

While you are learning how to live sober, we are trying to learn how to trust you. We are filled with anger, resentment, bitterness, and the very real fear that you will mess up again. But I also beg you to be patient with the people who have been on this journey with you. If you are reading this sober, I congratulate you. The addict suffers each blow, but the shrapnel from each explosion also devastates everyone in her path. In many ways, an addict is like an ever-igniting bomb. I have, however, had to deal with the actions and consequences of an addict for the past twenty years. I have never been addicted to any illegal, mind-altering substance. Having said that, I hope I wonвЂ™t be judged based on my perspective.I have been blessed. I believe in Sober Mommies, and the empowering message it sends to anyone who has struggled with addiction.

Letter from my addiction